Now, just after that first anniversary of her death, I am experiencing the same feelings, but much sharper and more present than the first time around.
I have had training in grief and mourning, and know that it will recur, but thought that like last year, I could just get on with things and live through it. But now, I am emotionally disturbed much more and it strikes and I can be on the verge of tears.
Perhaps this is the result of bottling up those feelings and shutting it out, that now it has caught me unawares and returned to remind me of my own vulnerability and mortality?
I have always felt strong enough to overcome these emotions, while actually feeling empathy for those who are in mourning and supporting them - now I can see that it's not short term care they need, but longer term.
Prayers for my sister V and her family, who are going through the same scenario, the first anniversary.
